Saturday, May 15, 2010

favourite lyrics 89-79

89
Radiohead  All I need

I am the next act waiting in the wings
I am an animal trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth who just wants to share your light
I am just an insect trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right
It's all right

88
The Killers Everything will be alright

I believe in you and me
I'm coming to find you
If it takes me all night
Wrong until you make it right
And I won't forget you
At least I'll try
And run, and run tonight
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright

I wasn't shopping for a doll
To say the least, I thought I've seen them all
But then you took me by surprise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
So take your suitcase, cause I don't mind
And baby doll, I meant it every time
You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
But it's alright...

Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright

87
Alkaline Trio I found away

Midway on our life's journey, I found myself
In dark woods, the right road lost. To tell
About those woods is hard - so tangled and rough
And savage that thinking of it now, I feel
The old fear stirring....

Stumbling through the dark with a broken heart, all alone at it once again
Seeping in like a feeling you haven't felt since way back when
In the dead of that night, like the Summer of Sam
I caught word of the commotion you cause via telegram
And got all worked up, we got all worked up

I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I'm diving in
Don't follow me, stay right here I'll be back for you someday
I found away, it'd be best if you just stayed
It's not safe, don't follow me
I found away, I found away

Frozen in the lights of a locomotive, tied to the tracks again
You said you haven't felt this comatose since you can't remember when
You fly off the handle every time we sleep, straight off the deep

I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I'm diving in
Don't follow me, stay right here I'll be back for you someday
I found away, it'd be best if you just stayed
It's not safe, don't follow me
I found away, I found away

Away...
Away...

From the top of my lungs the truth shall be sung, sharp and damning
Violently stabbing at secrecy
That look on your face, it's more than I can take it's scaring
The living hell straight out of me

I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I'm diving in
Don't follow me, stay right here I'll be back for you someday
I found away, it'd be best if you just stayed
It's not safe, don't follow me
I found away, I found away

I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away

86
Gang Starr Positivity

Now is the chance to advance and get an outlook
Create the circumstance, because I doubt books
can relay, words this way, so I'll portray
a new image, and let's begin as
members who pledge to, look up ahead to
a beautiful world, though we've been led to
believe it will not be and, we still are seein
Agreein there'll be peace, the wealth will increase
and we'll prosper, you know like flourishin
The rhyme I toss ya, it will be nourisihin
I must bring, ideals for better living see
Because I do believe in positivity

"Positive but never negative"

Weak is the clown, much weaker is the fool
I'll overrule to duel and to school
For reasons that are so deep, I don't need no cheap
people to identify, I just say hi and bye
Since I'm an optimist, I'll turn and walk with this
tape playing loudly, inside my headphones
MC's that crowd me, turn into headstones
Because I don't have time for, powerless minds or
suckers who suck, because I find more
interesting topics, you can not stop it
I drop it and rock it I shock it, that's how I'm livin B
I like to live my life with positivity

"Positive but never negative"

Havin nothin to lose, so much to gain
Bein grateful for my darker skin, I take you for a spin
and then begin to groove and sooth and move your whole
crew, the Guru, and truth I wanna give to you
So watch as I break through to your dome
Cause I'm prone to give a message, then back home
is where I'm goin, still knowin, my life's right
and that days to come, will be fun
I'll achieve, I'll receive, and I'll be livin free
Me and my DJ Premier with positivity... positivity! Yeah

"Positive but never negative"
So if you're generatin positivity out there
You know that's the move
Yo me and Premier, we always got positivity
DJ Tommy Hill, he got positivity
Damo D-Ski, got positivity
Brooklyn, the Boogie Down
All the boroughs.. got positivity
Boston, Philly, New Jersey, Houston
The rest of the hip-hop world.. got positivity
Peace


85
Joy Division Love will tear us apart

When the routine bites hard
and ambitions are low
And the resentment rides high
but emotions won't grow
And we're changing our ways,
taking different roads
Then love, love will tear us apart again

Why is the bedroom so cold
Turned away on your side?
Is my timing that flawed,
our respect run so dry?
Yet there's still this appeal
That we've kept through our lives
Love, love will tear us apart again

Do you cry out in your sleep
All my failings exposed
Get a taste in my mouth
As desperation takes hold
Is it something so good
Just can't function no more?
When love, love will tear us apart again


84
Weezer Buddy Holly

What's with these homies dissin' my girl?
Why do they gotta front?
What did we ever do to these guys
That made them so violent?

Woo-hoo, but you know I'm yours.
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine.
Woo-hoo, and that's for all of time.

Woo-ee-oo, I look just like Buddy Holly.
Oh-oh, and you're Mary Tyler Moore.
I don't care what they say about us anyway.
I don't care 'bout that.


Don't you ever fear, I'm always near.
I know that you need help.
Your tongue is twisted, your eyes are slit.
You need a guardian.

Woo-hoo, and you know I'm yours.
Woo-hoo, and I know you're mine.
Woo-hoo, and that's for all of time.

I don't care 'bout that.

Bang! Bang! Knock on the door, another big bang, get down on the floor.
Oh No! What do we do?
Don't look now but I lost my shoe.
I can't run and I can't kick.
What's a matter babe, are you feelin' sick?
What's a matter, what's a matter, what's a matter you?
What's a matter babe, are you feelin' blue?
Oh-oh-oh!

And that's for all of time.
I don't care 'bout that.


83
Lenny Kravitz Fly away

I wish that I could fly
Into the sky
So very high
Just like a dragonfly

I'd fly above the trees
Over the seas in all degrees
To anywhere I please

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

Let's go and see the stars
The Milky Way or even Mars
Where they could just be ours

Let's fade into the sun
Let your spirit fly
For we are one
Just for a little fun
Oh, oh, oh yeah !

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah

I got to get away
Girl I got to get away
Oh oh oh yeah

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you yeah yeah
Oh Yeah !

I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah with you yeah yeah
I got to get away

82
Eurythmics Here comes the rain again

Here comes the rain again
Falling on my head like a memory
Falling on my head like a new emotion
I want to walk in the open wind
I want to talk like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you

So baby talk to me
Like lovers do
Walk with me
Like lovers do
Talk to me
Like lovers do

Here comes the rain again
Raining in my head like a tragedy
Tearing me apart like a new emotion
I want to breathe in the open wind
I want to kiss like lovers do
I want to dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you

So baby talk to me
Like lovers do

Here it comes again!


Here comes the rain again
Falling on my head like a memory
Falling on my head like a new emotion
(Here it comes again, here it comes again)
I want to walk in the open wind
I want to talk like lovers do
I want dive into your ocean
Is it raining with you


81
The Damned Eloise

Every night I'm there
I'm always there
She knows I'm there and heaven knows
I hope she goes (Eloise)
I find it hard to realise
That love was in her eyes
It's dying now
She knows I'm crying now

And every night I'm there
I break my heart to please
Eloise
Eloise

You know I'm on my knees yeah
I said please
You're all I want so hear my prayer
My prayer

My Eloise is like the stars that please the night
The sun that makes the day
That lights the way (Eloise)
And when that star goes by
I'll hold it in my hands and cry
Her love was mine
You know my sun will shine

You're all I want you've got to hear my prayer
My prayer

My Eloise I'd love to please her
I'd like to care but she's not there
And when I find you
I'd be so kind you'd want to stay
I know you'd stay

And as the days grow old
The nights grow cold
I wanna hold her near to me
You know she's dear to me
And only time will tell
And take away this lonely hell
I'm on my knees to my Eloise

You are my life so hear my prayer
You are the prize I know you're there
I know you're there
You're all I want you gotta hear my prayer
Yeah yeah yeah
You're all I need but you're not there
Oh no you're not there
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
My Eloise
Oh I'd love to please her
Oh my Eloise
Oh my Eloise oh my Eloise
Don't lie to me
I said no no no no
My Eloise


80
Leonard Cohen Everybody Knows

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows that the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died

Everybody talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long stem rose
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that you love me baby
Everybody knows that you really do
Everybody knows that you've been faithful
Ah give or take a night or two
Everybody knows you've been discreet
But there were so many people you just had to meet
Without your clothes
And everybody knows


Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

And everybody knows that it's now or never
Everybody knows that it's me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
Ah when you've done a line or two
Everybody knows the deal is rotten
Old Black Joe's still pickin' cotton
For your ribbons and bows
And everybody knows

And everybody knows that the Plague is coming
Everybody knows that it's moving fast
Everybody knows that the naked man and woman
Are just a shining artifact of the past
Everybody knows the scene is dead
But there's gonna be a meter on your bed
That will disclose
What everybody knows

And everybody knows that you're in trouble
Everybody knows what you've been through
From the bloody cross on top of Calvary
To the beach of Malibu
Everybody knows it's coming apart
Take one last look at this Sacred Heart
Before it blows
And everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Oh everybody knows, everybody knows
That's how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows

79
Million Dead Smiling at Strangers on trains

It was the strangest thing today
I saw new footprints in abandoned pathways
Beneath forgotten undergrowth something stirring again
You were a single red blood cell but i lost you in this knot of capillaries
You were bringing me oxygen when i needed it most in the smoke.

and you were always

as far as mongolia, as close as my clothes
your presence pervading, but it still never shows
as close as the answer I never quite know, or can't quite remember
your distance insidious, as soft as a blow
your shadow is with me wherever I go
it's on the tip of my tongue but still I never quite know, or can't
quite remember
i don't quite remember

the forced proximity of a million different mike leigh movies
makes me long for the fresh air of a familiar face
and not the violence of loneliness, nor the unease of surrounded seclusion
i keep nearly missing you around corners and in passing trains

and if I'd known that you weren't so far away
that you were never that far away
I could have rode this train smiling.

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favourite lyrics 100-90

I'm currently compiling a list of 100 of my favourite lyrics. This list of songs is not about particularly my favourite songs but are ones that are well-written or contain unusual lyrics. There may be some minor errors in the lyrics if you spot any please let me know.

Here are my ten for this post 
 
100-  
of Montreal - The party's crashing us...
 
You're such a mystery
I just want to stand and stare
Nibble on your ear
And smell the ocean in your hair
(Ocean in your hair, ocean in your hair)
I know you damage me
You leave me tangled in a knot
But when you reappear
I see Neptunian blues that eyes forgot
Neptunian blues that eyes forgot

Still, I only feel alive when the VU is flashing
Alarms going off in my head
I want to grab you and just kiss you
Maybe I should sit down
No sense in catching us now

Yeah, I only feel all right when the VU is flashing
And bombs going off in my head
I want to grab you, want to scream at you
No icing you down
The party's crashing us now
The party's crashing us now

We'll make love like a pair of black wizards
You free me from the past
You fucked the suburbs out of me
Oh well, those ugly days that made us so sick
They are just fossils now
We've learned the elevating trick

Still, I only feel alive when the VU is flashing
Alarms going off in my head
I want to grab you and just kiss you
Maybe I should calm down
No sense in catching us now

Still, I only feel alive when the VU is flashing
Bombs going off in my head
I want to grab you, want to scream at you
no icing me down
The party's crashing us now
The party's crashing us now

I only feel all right when the VU is flashing
Alarms going off in my head
I want to grab you, want to scream at you
No icing me down
The party's crashing us now

I only feel all right when the VU is flashing
And bombs going off in my head
I want to grab you, and just kiss you
Maybe I should calm down
No sense in catching us now

The party's crashing us now 

 
99- 
The Smiths The boy with the thorn in his side
 
The boy with the thorn in his side 
Behind the hatred there lies 
A murderous desire for love 
How can they look into my eyes? 
And still they don't believe me  
How can they hear me say those words?
Still they don't believe me
And if they don't believe me now 
Will they ever believe me ? 
And if they don't believe me now 
Will they ever, they ever, believe me ? 
Oh ... 

The boy with the thorn in his side 
Behind the hatred there lies 
A plundering desire for love 
How can they see the love in our eyes?
And still they don't believe us 
And after all this time 
They don't want to believe us 
And if they don't believe us now 
Will they ever believe us ? 
And when you want to live 
How do you start ? 
Where do you go ? 
Who do you need to know ? 

 
98- 
30 seconds to Mars  A beautiful Lie
 
Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game


(Oh Oh The end of the world)

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game

(So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful
It's a beautiful lie
So beautiful, beautiful...)

 
97-
Regina Spektor 20 Years of Snow
 
He's a wounded animal
He lives in a matchbox
He's a wounded animal
And he's been coming around here

He's a dying breed
He's a dying breed

His daughter is twenty years of snow falling
She's twenty years of strangers looking into each other's eyes
She's twenty years of clean
She never truly hated anyone or anything

She's a dying breed
She's a dying breed

She says, I'd prefer the moss
I'd prefer the mouth
A baby of the swamps
A baby of the south

I'm twenty years of clean
I never truly hated anyone or anything
Twenty years of clean
Twenty years of clean

But I got to get me out of here
This place is full of dirty old men
And the navigators with their mappy maps
And moldy heads and pissing on sugar cubes

I got to get me out of here
This place is full of dirty old men
And the navigators with their mappy maps
And moldy heads and pissing on sugar cubes

While you
Stare at your boots
And the words float out like holograms
And the words float out like holograms
And the words float out like holograms

They say, feel the waltz
Feel the waltz
Come on, baby, baby, now feel the waltz

Feel the waltz
Feel the waltz
Come on, baby, baby, now feel the waltz 

 
96- 
mewithoutyou Tie me Up - Tie me down
 
I was looking at the leaves
Climbing to the tops of the trees

But you were nowhere to be found,
Just beneath all the green
You were buried like a little seed
Among the roots and underground
I was licking at the leaves
But I was in short sleeves and you.
You were like some sickness that I caught.
My sweetheart moved away,
Swept off like garbage in the alleyway
I need more grace than I thought

Brother, I'm far 
brother I'm far way 
brother away from everything good
She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leads me 
Well, I follow like thread
Tie me up!
Untie me!
All this wishing I was dead is getting old... is getting old
It goes on but it's old.

I was swimming through the waves
For what must have been days
But could find no relief,
When I started sinking down
I thought for certain I would drown
Until I saw you in the ocean underneath
All the bright colored fish
Tell of a treasure in a dull shell,
"Such subtlety, so easily missed!"
You, my hidden pearl of pure and perfect love
And I'm the living example of 100 percent the opposite of this,
If I ask the same questions (now I know I ask the same questions)
Well maybe I repeat myself from time to time,
But it's because everyone who answers me is a liar.

She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leads me
Well, I follow like thread
But you untied me - didn't you untie me, Lord?
And now I haven't even thought about
Killing myself in almost five months.

95 -
Placebo Space Monkey
 
Space monkey in the place to be
Riding in a rocket to a planet of sound
shooting the moon, playing dominoes in drag
An increase in population of a hundred percent

Space monkey in the place to be
with a chemical peel and a picture of Mary
out on a limb in the carnival of me
raising the temperature one hundred degrees

we're sewn together
she’s born to mesmerise
beside, astride her 
I die inside her

space monkey in the place to be
a mass of contradictions in a golden frame
raising the roof in a calamity way
completely meretricious of a poke in the eye

space monkey in the place to be
talk of the town with a Colombian rock
out on a limb in the carnival of me
raising the temperature 100 degrees

we're sewn together
she’s born to mesmerise
beside, astride her
I die inside her
its far too sacred
don’t ever fake it
and don’t and don’t and don’t let me down

like you let me down before
like you let me down before

space monkey in the place to be
with some free-association and a hole in her head
out on a limb in the carnival of me
raising the temperature 100 degrees

we're sewn together
she’s born to mesmerise
beside, astride her 
I die inside her
it's far too sacred 
don’t ever fake it
and don’t and don’t and don’t let me down

like you let me down before
like you let me down before
like you let me down before
like you let me down before 

 
94-
Paramore  Misery Business
 
I'm in the business of misery, 
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me. 
Two weeks and we caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passin' up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
they want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving.

Whoa, I never meant to brag,
But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got what I wanted now 
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

 
93
The Fray  How to save a life.
 
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just talk
Smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
She goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
pray to God he hears you
And pray to god he hears you

and where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours, grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life 

How to save a life 

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life 

 
92
Hatebreed  Unloved
 
When it all ended

There was no where to turn
I hid inside myself hoping someone would find me

That day never came
As the years passed the pain lessened
I thought those memories were gone forever
I was wrong

This time there's no turning back
Emerge from a doorway at the end of a war inside my soul
There's no picking up where we left off
And there will not be a future
I've died so many times inside
I've accepted this pain
And I won't look back now
I never will

You don't know
You don't care
You never have and you never will
(repeat)

You made me realize
Everything I've ever known of love was pain
And the person you once were
Has died and rotted away
I've lived with this knife in my heart
As a reminder of what I can't be
All I know how to do is hate you
There is nothing you can say or do

You don't know
You don't care
You never have and you never will
You never have and you never will

You were never part of my life
And you never will be

unloved
I was born unloved
unloved

break it down

 

91

Brand New  Luca

When I disappear, do you fear for the sister I took?

When I disappear, it is clear I am up to no good
I am drearily bloodletting this bedwetting cosmonaut
"Son, the last thing you'll realize you need is what you've already got"

So touch me or don’t
Just let me know
Where you’ve been

Please drop me a line with a hook and some raw bleeding bait
(one, two, three, four)
For I am uncaught and still swimming alone in the lake
(five, six, seven, eight)
Shimmering under a moon made in anger and angst
(I was the one who was always repeating it)
Shimmering like a penny out of reach in the subway grate
(Shimmering like a coin kept safe away, you never listen to anything)

So touch me or don’t
Just let me know 
Where you’ve been

We could leave it alone,
I’m sure there’s someone who knows
Where you’ve been

You could never work well with our group
Not with the faults we found
So we've fixed you with cement galoshes
And no one can save you now
Unless you have friends among fish
There’ll still be no air to breathe
You could drink up the entire ocean
We’ll still find someone to be everything we know that you’ll never be

So touch me or don’t
Just let me know
Where you’ve been

Or we could leave it alone
I’m sure there’s someone who knows
Where you’ve been

 
90
 
Passion Pit   Little Secret

When I came down the dawn poured into me. I shook em up the walls came crumbling
My thin skin trembling with these salty wounds  My stolen gold inside the emperor's tomb    Now painting rainbows on my ugly face  I built this cardboard neighborhood's disgrace  But I ascend and serve my feverish need
Within the confines of such chemistry    Let this be our little secret  No one needs to know we're feeling  Higher and higher and higher  Higher and higher and higher    But I feel alive, oh, I feel it in me  Up and up we keep on climbing  Higher and higher and higher  Higher and higher and higher    My face blew up at such a casual sight  The smattered colors of ecstatic fright  The rush above me to oblivion  Outlining wet sidewalks in halogen    Have you ever felt so goddamn strong?  How come it takes some people so damn long  He turned to squeeze the lemon juice to rain  The citrus drawing out the scene in stains    Mother, I can tell what you've been thinking  Staring at the stars on your ceiling  Thinking once there was a power that you were wielding  But now I've hit the mark,  Stabbing at the dark  And I cannot help but ignore the people staring at my scars    Let this be our little secret  No one needs to know were feeling  Higher and higher and higher    But I feel alive and I feel it in me  Up and up and keep on climbing  Higher and higher and higher 

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Wednesday, May 5, 2010

world war 1 extract 1.

This is an extract from my grandfather's world war 1 company diaries :

28th November 1916

Sgt Adams killed by sniper 123, sorry to have to report that Sgt Bromley deserted and went over to the enemy at about 8pm to 9pm, was fired at by our machine gunner. 
He has been mining on this front since October 1915 and is therefore in possession of considerable information. 

Spare company men were sent into 'no-man's land' the following morning to see if they could recover a body, none was found.

This extract really made me think about the human perception of war, firstly to be so unprepared mentally, until you are in that situation there is no way you could ever be mentally prepared.

To feel the futility of it all that you would go to the enemy just to prevent yourself from having to fight. In those days it was called 'shell-shock' but wasn't taken all that seriously. Now it would be probably be seen as a symptom of post-traumatic stress disorder which affects so many military personnel across the world.

The consequences of his actions, firstly the highly probable loss of his life, either by his own people or by his enemy. The shame at this period in time that he would bring to his family and the possible change of action caused by giving away valuable information and endangering the whole company. It must have made for a pretty tense period within the company ranks.

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